The Conversation

The names in this fictional conversation are not the real names of any of the people involved. The story comes from an interview between the author, Jacob Meinershagen, and the interviewee who will be called Ed Williams.

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Moderator: Hello, we are here to talk about the situation Mr. Williams has found himself in and why everything has happened how it has. So, Mr. Williams, could you please explain your situation for us, so we have a place to start in this conversation?

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Ed Williams: Sure, I started at this company, in low ranks, in a store maintenance position and developed a preventative maintenance plan for all of the equipment in the store [13:00].  I brought my store from the bottom 5% of all the stores in the country to the 3rd in the country [12:30]. I got promoted to a regional manager position after a year at the district level, and my preventative maintenance plan was instated nationwide [13:58]. I was fired when the 2008 financial crisis came around and I felt that I was fired because I was older than the average worker in the lower ranks of the company [00:52] and that the company was getting rid of older people because they thought that they would provide resistance to changes in the company. I think that, based on my performance, I should not have been fired [14:18] and I was very frustrated that I had to lose my job going into such tough times. I needed to be able to support my family and job hunting in that economic downfall was nearly impossible. Not many places were hiring people in the types of positions I had been in because they had held on to those people and didn’t need more. I was worried about paying my bills.

Moderator: I understand that that must have been a very trying time for you Mr. Williams. Mr. Corp, what were the reasons that the company had for firing Mr. Edwards? Was it because he was older than you would like your employees to be? Were you worried about him not accepting new plans in the company?

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Mr. Corp: Well, in 2006 we initiated a rollout of a new procedure system that we believed would be of benefit to the overall operation of the company. We told the members of our leadership staff that this rollout was likely to take a couple of years to come into full effect [9:55]. Mr. Williams was also not the only person that we laid off in that year, and it wasn’t just people of his age. We eliminated around 2,800 employees at his level of management as well as about 10,000 employees nationwide in the field service area [10:27]. The 2008 recession was also bad for us as a company. We never enjoy having to remove people’s positions in our company, but for us to keep the doors open, we had to make certain hard decisions. I have sympathy for Mr. Williams, and his concerns for taking care of his family, but I must keep in mind that had we kept every person that the company employed at the time the company would have gone out of business. Had the company gone under in the economic crisis of 2008, a lot more than just 12,800 people would have lost their jobs. As the saying goes, sometimes the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few. We were acting in the best interests of our employees as a whole even though it may have been to the detriment of some.

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Ed Williams:   One thing you forgot to mention is that the employees you fired in 2008 had to leave with no notice [11:04]. That is even worse for them because they were likely convinced, like I was, that they were secure in their job. Then, they are told that they no longer have a job, without being given enough notice to create a plan for when they had to leave. Also, I had a good track record of work with the company. I had proven myself very capable [14:10]. While I will agree that not all of the people who were laid off were my age, there were also other instances of people who were older than average being put at a disadvantage.

Moderator: Mr. Williams, can you give us one of those instances of people who were older being put at a disadvantage?

Ed Williams:   Yes. The older managers and leaders who came into the company from other companies would be put into stores that were in the lower end of the ranks in terms of standards. This would provide a challenge for them to get the store into a position where it was meeting the proper standards. The older people often succeeded in turning these stores around and getting them up to par with the standards of the company.

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On the other hand, the people coming into the company that was young would be put into stores that were either new or were already in good shape and meeting the corporation’s standards [16:03]. This would sadly make it a lot easier for young people to look good. On top of that, once an older person would get their store turned around, they would not be rewarded but would be transferred to a different store with the same situation [17:06].

Moderator:      I see. It seems that you think that Mr. Corp intended for you to be discouraged so that you would leave the company. Based on what you said, it sounds like the company preferred the newer people and wanted to keep them around. Mr. Corp, is there any specific reason that you would put older people in tough situations?

Mr. Corp:        We held the belief that since these older people had such good standing coming into the company, that they would be able to put to use their experience to turn around some of the more difficult locations. Once they had done so, we knew that they could be trusted, and that they knew how to turn a store around and, therefore, would move them to another store with similar problems with the hopes that they could also do the same there. We would put the new, younger people in easy situations because we didn’t expect them to have a lot of experience. Because of this lack of experience, we were worried that if we put a young person in a difficult store, the store would have a higher chance of getting worse instead of better.

Moderator:      Mr. Williams, what do you think about this?

Ed Williams:   I don’t know, even if that is the case, why would the company not justly reward the older people who had turned around the stores when they sent them on to the next? Also, as I said earlier, I felt as if I had more than proven my worth with the company through all that I had accomplished. I feel like the company even acknowledged that through the promotions I received, and yet I was still fired when hard times came around. It seems to me that when the hard times come, a company would want to keep the workers who had proven themselves and were known to produce results. I don’t think, as you said Mr. Corp that the young people had proven their capabilities yet so I don’t get why you would have chosen them over people like me?

Moderator: It seems that, overall, our society has a bias towards younger people since we believe that they are much more willing to go through change than older people. However, this bias may not be a good one since putting older people in charge allows for more experience in the higher ranks of companies. We should all strive to find a good balance here and a way to include everyone based on their skills and talents rather than their attributes.

Works Cited

Williams, Edward. Personal interview. 25 February 2019.

Time Heals

It’s the best time of the year. The family has come together and we all are excited to celebrate Christmas. I can’t wait to see all of my cousins , aunts and uncles. During Christmas, I enjoy catching up with all of my favorite cousins and learning about all of the new things going on in their lives. We are all almost adults and will be graduating soon. A few of my cousins live in Georgia so it’s always exciting to see and spend time with them again. My cousin ZK , 17 years of age, is expecting a baby soon and we are all happy and excited to meet the new addition to the family. My cousins and I go ice skating every year on Christmas. This year is different because ZK won’t be able to participate. We decide to go anyway to not disrupt the tradition and she agrees to come and still enjoy our company. Here we are, skating, laughing and drinking hot cocoa just like old times. As we skate, I sneak a glimpse of ZK and notices that she’s not smiling and looks sad. So, my cousins and I decide to go talk with her a bit. I proceed to ask her what’s wrong and if she wants to talk about it.  ZK seemed to fake a smile and insist on being okay and not wanting to talk about (00:03). I knew something wasn’t right so I kept trying to get her to talk. She finally just started crying and said, “I don’t know how to talk about it,”(00:10). We all just hugged her and told her it’s okay and to let it out. We wanted her to feel safe and know that we are always here for her. ZK began to sob and say, “I just feel so left out and alone… things are so different.. And I’m already going through enough back home,”(00:20). I wanted to know what she was going through and how we could help. ZK says that, “back home it’s so uncomfortable for me. I get teased at school and I can’t even go anywhere without feeling like I’m being judged,”(00:30). My cousins and I felt so bad and didn’t know what to say. ZK says, “They said all kinds of things like, I’m too young to be having sex, I’m going to be a bad mother because I’m too young, and that I wouldn’t graduate.”(00:37) We all sat there devastated and tried to help ZK calm down as much as possible. We told her to not let these things bring her down and to stay positive. We offered suggestions on homeschooling, and ways that would help her feel comfortable. ZK only had one year left of school so she wanted to stay put and finish it out. We encouraged her to be brave and to not let the things the kids said affect her because we all know it’s not true and that’s all that matters. ZK slowly stopped crying and felt better because of our help(00:45). We asked ZK about her parents feelings towards her pregnancy. She said, “At first I thought they would hate me too, for getting pregnant before graduating, but, unexpectedly, they supported me. They gave me great advice on how to handle these situations, on how to stay positive and they made me feel safe. It really helped a lot knowing they still loved me the same and wasn’t mad at me,”(00:56). We told her that that’s all that matters. As long as your family is by your side, then the opinions of strangers don’t matter. After the talk, we decided to go home. We all knew that this tradition helped us get through a tough time, and we would never forget this Christmas.

Two years later…

ZK is doing amazing. She has more confidence and looks at things differently. We call each other often and I asked her if she was still facing challenges. She said, “The biggest challenge I still face is stereotypes among young, single mothers. I have to deal with people thinking I’m less of a mother because of my age and overall just having to prove to the world that I’m a great mother despite my age and it doesn’t matter how old I am. I love my son and would do anything in the world  for him. I go to work everyday to provide for him. I have my own home and car, and I make sure he goes to school, eats and is well taken cared of,”(05:10). I told her how much I admire her love for her son and how she proves not only to others, but to herself that she is a great mother. I asked her what did she learn from that situation in high school and how did it affect her today: she said, “If i had went to school and those kids didn’t bully me or make me uncomfortable, I feel like it would have made my pregnancy easier. I would have have had more confidence within myself and not have felt insecure every time I left out my house. I think they played a major role with my attitude towards the outside world during my pregnancy. Like I felt like everyone was out to judge me or look down on me so I never wanted to go out publicly. I sometimes didn’t want to post my son on social media because I knew people were judging me,”(06:25). She stated, “I just wish I could have experienced my senior year in a more positive way without being bullied, but I look at these things differently now. I think if I wouldn’t have gone through those tough times then I wouldn’t be as strong as I am today. I think that situation was a blessing in disguise. It made me strong, patient and motivated during my pregnancy. It taught me how not to let things affect me negatively, but to find the good in it. I think it helped me to be a better mother. Honestly, I look at it as fuel to keep me going,”(07:00). We both were able to laugh now about the situation and it didn’t seem to make ZK sad anymore. Instead she was able to talk about it now and let it all out. ZK learned that time heals all wounds…

Deonica Moore, Portrait of Zakori Wright, Kansas City, April
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Deonica Moore, Portrait of Zakori Wright, Kansas City, April
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The Moon and the Sun

The moon and The sun work as a cycle 

One sets as the other one rises  

How it feels to be an outcast 

One walks as the other one runs 

My moon is seen as an outcast  

But they work as a cycle 

Bigots like Donald Trump

Treat them like they’re recyclable

Here’s this little piece of paper  

We make up whether or not you are  

Coherent and able  

Kind of like cutting off your legs just to see if you’re capable

You strip a little piece of dignity  

From the small number of people who have any clarity 

You pour a little price into curiosity 

Slap a name on it for the people who live within the causal luminosity

They say to be one with others 

But how do we coexist without having the same Mother  

The moon and the son  

They rotate like two linear buns 

The universe spins on the same frequency 

Even if we don’t speak the same currency  

If you bounce the moon off it’s timeline

Is the sun sitting there waiting to see if the time’s right?  

One sets as the other one rises  

Its all about how they handle each other’s vices  

You have one language that’s just sugar and spices  

And one language that’s all high rises  

That’s how it feels to be an outcast 

“All things in this world die” 

According to someone who claims that they don’t hide  

Shifting paths, living in masks  

Do you walk or do you run? 

Are you the moon or are you the sun? 

Artist Rendition:  

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Author unknown, illustration of the moon and sun, downloaded on April 1, 2019, All rights reserved.

My narrative poem addressed some things from my point of view which is looking into a window through L’s point of view. The first stanza starts off with the moon and sun comparison. This is a big theme that ties the entire piece together. I talked about how one (the moon/sun) sets while the other one rises. The moon and sun are constantly on their own wavelength, rotation, time, and speed. They’re working together as a team but they’re also their own individual energy source. To try and make more sense of this we must give a little background on the person in interest. During my interview with L, they gave me insight into some of the struggles they had to deal with on the daily due to the lack of documentation their parents have. They are considered “aliens” according to the government and the laws held within this country. The moon and sun comparison has multiple ties into it but the main one is that the moon represents the minorities while the sun represents the government and/or upper class. Undocumented people are “outcasts.” In the interview, L states that “there [were] actually a couple situations where [their] parent [was] uhm— they weren’t embarrassed but they, they were treated less than a human”(1:51). My last line in my first stanza states “one walks as the other one runs” in correlation to the idea of the moon and sun being two different kinds of people. Imagine yourself in a situation like the rabbit and the tortoise. Who runs and who walks? That is kind of the concept I am trying to portray. Do you eat or do you stave? 

In the second stanza, you can see the input of my personal opinion. I start off talking about the moon being an outcast and then I continue with the “cycle” aspect of the theme. In a sense, the government and everybody else has to work In a cycle in order to coexist and function in the same society. “Bigots like Donald Trump, treat them like they’re recyclable.” I assumed my audience has a slight comprehension of what is going on concerning our current president and the status of his demands for this country. The laws and newly founded apprehensions regarding undocumented people have really stunted the thought process for the hope of all humanity. They are being treated like they are “recyclable.”  In stanza three, I talk about the “piece of paper” and how “we make up whether or not you are coherent and able.” The piece of paper is the document (s) that L’s parents do not have, the tangible and physical recycled broken-down piece of wood that determines their entire status and quality of life in this country. I compare this to “cutting off your legs, just to see if you’re capable” in kind of a sarcastic but ironic kind of light. In the interview, L talks about his parent’s most recent struggle. Their mom had just recently gotten into a car accident, trying to get the car fixed and the insurance companies to comply with the financial struggles of having to hire a lawyer. All of that can be taxing but even more taxing on someone who is illegally living in this country. Simple things are harder to obtain. The sun is the center of the universe, it has multiple energy forms relying on its energy and resources in order to function. It’s just like modern day society, the government is in control of everything, the center of attention, meanwhile, the moon, (the minorities, the outcasts, the “aliens”) is in the back pulling most of the weight getting little to no credit and is usually ridiculed along the way. The people of the moon live humbly for things that don’t come easy to them. 

In the next stanza, I focus even deeper on the topic by talking about the restricting “Freedom” Americans claims we have a right to—”you strip a little piece of dignity” (taking away simple rights based off status of citizenship) “for the people who have clarity” (clarity in the sense of having a different sense of mind due to the difference in struggles and experiences people with documents versus people who don’t have documents have to go through (each person’s definition of “clarity” may or may not differ). “Slap a name on it for people who live within the casual luminosity” (to bring attention to how we, as a society, tend to label people or put them into certain boxes. People who are just waking up every day in the journey of finding a purpose to carry out until they die. Casual luminosity. Casual everyday living auras. Living light. In the interview, L states that they like to “go out with [their] cousins, a lot,” and “that’s one of the most enjoyable things [they] do” (11:55). I invert this into stanza five, line two by comparing L’s joy in hanging out with his cousins to a much deeper and more rooted problem. How does society and humanity coexist as one without having the same “Mother.” Mother in the sense of “all things greater than me.” How do people overcome fear, hatred, and differences if we won’t all first identify as being all the same? All equal? All following and breathing for the same purpose of enjoying and fulfilling our lives until we eventually die? 

In stanza six, I state that the “universe spins on the same frequency, even if we don’t speak the same currency.” In saying this, I try to illustrate a picture, a visual so my audience can depict the kind of angle I am trying to portray. In the interview with L, they state that they had struggled with reading for a long time, even in kindergarten they would still struggle more than their peers. In my poem, I compare language to currency, that even though there are a lot of people who speak many different languages, it does not suggest that we are any better than the next. It is simply a currency we have; we get to use it whenever and however we want all the while reaping the benefits of being able to communicate with one another. If we strip away someone’s right to speech or degrade someone for not being fluent in one language or the other, we deny someone’s right to currency, we deny them a rite of passage.  Stanza seven hits L’s struggles with stereotypes placed upon them and their family. In the interview they state that people have “tried to get my dad into selling drugs and all of that but he always said no and now I have one uncle that is here and the rest— some are incarcerated, some are in other states and some are in Mexico because of deportation” (1:51). I use this to incorporate “it’s all about how they handle each other’s vices, you have one language that’s just sugar and spices and one language that’s all high rises” by using their story and struggle with problems with their family member’s and drugs and compare it to the way that society has to share each other’s experiences and “vices” in order come to a point of total unanimous acceptance.

Author Unknown, content containing peace propaganda, downloaded on April 6th, 2019, All rights reserved.

In the second to last stanza, I incorporated a direct quote from L themselves, “All things in this world die.” In the interview, I ask L if there is a specific or special quote he relates too and that is the first part of the quote. I find this to be the main anchor to this entire narrative poem. We all live, we all breathe, and we all die. The reason for any kind of discrimination of someone else due to their ethnic, sexual, or religious belief is pointless. If we all breathe, we all die. If we all die, what makes one person better than the next? L had a different childhood because of the struggles and battles their parents had to deal with. Although a burden at times, L takes all of this in a very warm-hearted light, they take these struggles and turn them into lessons. I state at the very end; “Do you walk, or do you run? Are you the moon or are you the sun?” Ultimately, no matter what you decide to be, you must remember that the moon is merely a reflection of the sun. We all walk and we all eventually run. It’s simply a cycle, and that cycle is called life.

The Art of Attitude

Sherri Collins, photo of Michelle DeWeese and Gavin Collins, Wellington, Mo, 2017, Copyright Free

“So, where did you grow up?”(19:44) I asked Michelle DeWeese, a woman I consider a good friend and a role model. “I grew up in Denver, Colorado. It was a big metropolitan city where I was exposed to Black, White, Chinese, single parents, married parents, rich, poor – I saw a little bit of everything, and that was to my advantage.”(19:56) Michelle is different than most as she tends to look at the bright side, even when things have not necessarily gone her way. Intrigued, I asked, “What words would you use to describe your differences?”(00:09) Michelle then went on to tell me, “My handicap can be described as a birth defect, that was discovered when I was four years old, and the technical name for it was cerebral palsy.”(00:13).

Chart, Types of Cerebral Palsy, 2018, Copyright Free

When I first saw Michelle, I was eleven years old, sitting in church with my mother. Michelle walked by, using two crutches, and moved all the way to the front. I asked my mother why she had to use crutches, and this is the first I had known of anyone with a birth defect. My mother explained to me that there were people that had certain limitations and could not do everything that I could. She told me to be thankful for what I had and not to treat people with handicaps any differently than I would treat anyone else.  I thought, “How did she play sports and run around with her friends when she was a child?” At that moment I was very thankful for the childhood that I had lived.

Sherri Collins, Michelle DeWeese in 2018, Lexington, Mo, Copyright Free

Michelle loves to watch sports, especially when the people she loves are involved. When I asked her about her childhood, she still gave me no negatives. She said, “I had a very positive experience, because being highly verbal, I was a hospital representative for, I guess you would call it poster-child type stuff, for the children’s hospital in Denver, Colorado.” (2:20) While she spent quite a bit of time in the hospital dealing with six surgeries over ten years in her childhood, she has not allowed that to hinder her ability to make friends, and enjoy life. Michelle explained to me that she had three older siblings who didn’t treat her any differently, and that helped her fit in. I personally did not grow up around anyone that was too different from me, and I wondered if she had faced any adversity at school because of her race, African-American, or because of her disability, but again, she gave me only the positive side of the story, “I was in a school for handicapped children and I was not in a mainstream public school. There were nurses and an underground tunnel to the hospital, and there were rest periods, and children of various illnesses, so that’s who I was around most of the time.” (1:03) When I see people with differences, I think of all the challenges that go along with it. I think of people that have been through tough times just because of what they look like or what they believe in. In a book for the history course called Maus by Art Speigleman, Artie’s father survived the Holocaust and suffered through several problems with guilt even after the oppression was over. I wondered why Michelle wasn’t telling me how bad her troubles had been, but only the good things that have come from her life. Later, I got the explanation. Michelle told me, “My mother did not allow me to accentuate my differences very much at all.” (2:20) Michelle’s mother played a huge part in the way that she carries herself. She explained to me that, “She did not let me focus on it. I was not the center of the world.” (8:10) Her mother knew that she was different, being that she was handicapped, but she also knew that her race would be an issue in society as well. “My mother did not allow my race to be a difference. She deliberately asked excellence of us, because she knew that the race issue was already there.” (17:53) I began to wonder about her mother, and why she raised her children to be so tough and to not give in to what the world told them about their differences. Michelle then explained to me, “My mother was raised in the deep South and she was mixed race. And so she saw a lot of the, if I have my history timing right, she saw a lot of the separate water fountains, black and white differences growing up than I did.” (18:33) Her mother, “set out to give us a bigger world than she experienced” (19:35).

Racial Equality, 2018, copyright free

I believe that Michelle has made the most of her life. After earning her Bachelor’s degree in Psychology, she went on to earn her Master’s degree in Divinity from Northeastern State University. Earning her degree did not come without challenges. She said, “At one point I was discouraged from getting my Masters because an administrator felt I didn’t have the money to be in the school, but I went to the school with vocational rehabilitation and ended up getting my degree.” (3:17) Despite the outside pressure, Michelle feels that the biggest challenge she faces is within herself. I believe this is true for most people. Humans have a natural need to belong to something bigger than themselves, and it can be a lot tougher to fit in when you have an obvious difference. One obvious example of this is when Jewish people were trying to find their place in Europe in the early 1900s. They were oppressed by every single group of people that they tried to fit in with. With Michelle, her challenge was not comparing herself to others. “Recognizing that dreams that I had for myself were not going to be.” (9:00) This quote from Michelle made me look at my own life and realize how lucky I am to be able-bodied and to be able to achieve the goals that I have set for myself. Michelle has not allowed her limitations to keep her down for very long. She lives independently and functions in society very well. I asked her if she had any hobbies, and she gave me a great response. Her hobbies include “going to the gym, watching people that I know in sporting events, and attending live concerts.” (24:21) I have never heard of a person with cerebral palsy being able to work out. She explained to me that going to the gym relieves stress for her. Michelle has come to watch me play basketball several times when I was in high school, and I think I finally understand why. When I asked her what her favorite memory was, she answered with this, “I think I like most of all watching you, your senior and junior year was a lot of fun. [Tears run down her face] because it allowed me to go back to high school for the good stuff. Just watching you live life, play basketball, hang out with your friends” (26:50). I believe that Michelle loved watching me so much because when she would see me running down the court, or shooting a basket, she could experience the sport through me. Michelle really showed me that being single, African-American, handicapped, or whatever difference one may have, does not mean that you can’t enjoy life. It just means that you have to try a little harder, create meaningful relationships with the people around you, and have a positive attitude along the way.

Madison Bolten, Michelle DeWeese and Gavin Collins, 2019, Lexington, Mo, Copyright Free

The Power of Education

Michael Wiles, Portrait of Nick and Maggie Schubert, Miami, Florida, September 2015. All rights reserved.

I would like to tell you a story of a little girl who moved from Havana, Cuba at the age of four because her parents wanted her and her siblings to grow up in a free nation. This girls name is Orcadia Perez, but after she became a U.S. citizen at 14 she changed her name to Maggie. This young girl who has spent most of her life in the United States, who considers this nation her home has unfortunately experienced persecution for her Hispanic ancestry. What makes this story even worse is that her father served this nation as an officer in the U.S. Army. Her family experienced bigotry and discrimination during her childhood out of what she believes to be pure unmitigated ignorance from a lack of education and understanding of Hispanic culture

Michael Wiles, Photo of Maggie Schubert, Raleigh, North Carolina, December 2017. All rights reserved.
 

Maggie Perez is a child of a United States military service member. She has traveled to multiple army bases across the country during her life, she married a distant uncle of mine, Nick, and her name is now Maggie Schubert. She also has three sons and six grandchildren, and she has spent most of her work as a legal assistant. Maggie came to the U.S. as a legal immigrant and obtained her citizenship, an achievement that she cherishes.

Michael Wiles, Picture of Maggie Schubert and her son Raymond Garcia, St. Louis, Missouri, December 2008. All rights reserved

During an interview that I conducted over the phone with her she described some of the differences that she experienced in her transition from a Latin culture to what she describes as an “Anglo based culture.” In my opinion, by spending her childhood in the United States Maggie is a child of two cultures Anglo and Latino even though she has spent such little time in Cuba. Maggie has been able to maintain her Latin Roots through her parents, one of the significant differences that she has experienced and had to overcome was the language barrier. She discussed that “for the first five years of my life I was raised in Spanish, but I was taught English in kindergarten in Miami”(1:45). Even though she was taught English since her arrival in Florida, her mother at home would “get really upset if we used English and we would have to revert back to Spanish”(5:07). Personally, I believe that by being a bilingual speaker increases a person’s cognitive ability, considering various languages have different word meaning and structure. Being able to speak multiple languages not only helps us as individuals increase our own intelligence, but it also exposes us to differences in culture. Becoming educated in different languages and cultural differences can help people with the process of fitting into new cultures while holding on to elements of their heritage that helps make a person unique. 

However, on the other hand, education can be dangerous when used to expose people for the wrong reasons. We see an example of a cartoon made by Walt Disney that shows how Germans would indoctrinate the school children to be anti-Semitic from a very young age. We see in the cartoon at point 5:20 young school children being taught to be ruthless to anyone who is perceived to be weaker than the Germans. (Walt Disney: The making of a Nazi 1943, YouTube) As Maggie describes “Spanish is a very different language because it is so emotional and we have words that don’t exist in English”(1:45). As we have seen through history this can be very accurate. For example, in Eastern Europe in World War II, especially Poland, there was a difference between Jews who lived in the cities versus those who lived in rural areas. The Jews in rural areas tended to speak more Yiddish, whereas the Jews in the cities tended to speak more polish. The difference in language is a clear way to differentiate between groups of people and in some cases makes it easier to discriminate against the groups.

Walt Disney, Education for Death, 1943, via YouTube.

Throughout history, groups that have differed culturally, and socially from the majority have always faced discrimination. Despite growing up in a time period of great revolution and social reform, Maggie still experienced discrimination from individuals who were less educated and resisted the social upheaval. She mentions some instances of discrimination while being in school as a child. For example, Maggie responds to one incident in particular , “I did have this very openly racist teacher, who instead of saying Orcadia Perez he would say  “Or-cadia Pee-rez” and I corrected him I don’t know how many times until I got tired and I figured out he did it on purpose every single day. So little things like that were common place truthfully” (11:20). What I see in her story is the pure and simple ignorance of a man who refused to embrace or acknowledge the diversity of the students in his class and to change with the times. Even though this man is an educator he demonstrates his lack of intelligence through his ignorance in his refusal to correctly pronounce Maggie’s name. This teacher’s ignorance also demonstrates his lack of understanding of Maggie’s culture. Of course, this type of discrimination was common, especially in mostly southern states where she lived while her father was in the army. However, the worst of this discrimination came when she was five, when she and her whole family stopped for a meal at a Denny’s, and the staff refused to wait on her family. “my dad, my mom, my sister, and I, and my father looks a little less “Hispanic” than most Hispanics because my dad comes from a part of Spain where there is a lot of fair haired and eyed people, so he looks a little more Anglo” (11:20). In truth the first time I met Maggie I did not realize she was of Hispanic descent because she does look more Anglo than most Latinos do. It was not until I was older and had learned Hispanic culture through taking Spanish classes that not all Hispanic people look tan. However, this ignorant man jumped to an unnecessary conclusion based on the color of some of the people present and looked down upon Maggie’s father as he was most likely seen as an Anglo man who married a Hispanic woman. Something similar to this happened in the 1930s in Nazi Germany where people were shunned and persecuted when seen having interactions with the Jewish people.  Although these two examples are not nearly as bad as what African Americans have experienced, it is still upsetting. I am bothered because this is a family who came to this country, who loves the country, and who volunteered to defend it and they are treated like outcasts because they have a different skin color and an appearing atypical racial family. As the story goes the Perez family was sitting for a long time, waiting to order when Maggie finally said to a waitress “excuse me we need a menu and the waitress looked at my parents and said ‘one moment.’”( 11:20). After a little time went by a big man came back and said to 2nd lieutenant Perez “We don’t serve your kind here” ( 11:20). This is a terrible and inexcusable way to treat people who wanted nothing more than to have a meal, but also to a family who dedicated themselves to the country that welcomed them. Naturally, a five-year-old would not understand this, but her parents did and told her, “to get used to it because she will experience it her whole life”( 11:20). It is reasonable to assume that this man was not an educated individual and was a person uncomfortable with the concept of diversity and inclusion. This may have lead him to his disregard for the family’s culture and feelings.  Now, granted, not all uneducated people are racists there are many even today who are highly educated and in seats of power. An example that is found on a site called Ethics in Education shows through history how the Nazis would indoctrinate their youth into anti-Semitic tendencies through math problems. One of these problems involves calculating the growth rates of European races and predicting the population issue for the German race, and then at the end of the problem it assures the children there are means of safeguarding the future of the German race. Fortunately, Maggie has not been negatively affected by this horrible event and she has found herself to be more tolerant and welcoming of new people because she knows how it feels to be an outsider both culturally and socially.

Nazi math2

Among the three most important of racial groups in Europe, the following population growth was detected in the time between 1900 and1930. Teutonic people: 124 million to 149 million; Latin people: 103 million to 121 million; Slavic people:166 million to 226 million. Assuming a constant level of increase, calculate the growth rate and the total increase of the three groups for a 10-year period. What will be the population
percentage of the three groups in the year 1960 if these trends continue? Calculate, for the three points in time, the percentage of the European population represented by each group. What great danger do you perceive for the future of the German people if no basic change in this reality occurs? Fortunately there is justifiable hope that a reversal of these population growth rates is at hand
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Michael Wiles, Ethics in Education: Sample Mathematics Lessons from Nazi School Books.

It is Maggie’s belief that through education we can expose ourselves to a number of different cultures, and through this exposure, we can become more tolerant and understanding of the differences in people. However, throughout history education has been used to influence young minds to be prejudicial against other races, we see this thru practices employed by the Nazi Party in Germany. Education is a powerful tool when used properly and it is a great first step in exposing ourselves to other cultures around the world so that we can learn to be more accepting and tolerant.

Claire

The sunlight slips through the shutters of Claire’s bedroom. It is a frigid winter morning. The sky is clear and the sun is shining, but a bone chilling wind keeps the temperature just above freezing. Claire wakes up and walks to the bathroom. Her husband Joe is still asleep. She brushes her teeth and washes her face. She looks at her reflection in the mirror and wishes she looked different. A long and lonely wrinkle crossed her forehead revealing her age. She does her makeup and changes her clothes.

When she opens the door the frigid breeze rushes past her face. It feels sharp and makes her shiver. She rolls up her scarf and starts walking the dog down the block. Her neighbor is sitting outside as usual. She waves at him and mumbles a friendly “hello.” She always thought he was a very strange person. His wife had died many years ago, before Claire moved to the neighborhood. There were rumors about her death. That it was not an accident. That he went crazy because she wanted to leave him and he pushed her down the stairs. Claire keeps her distance and limits her interaction to a minimum. Just enough to be polite. She hurries her dog, Kara, so they can return to the warmth of the house. The wind is whooshing and Claire hates the cold. They return to the house at a fast pace. The radio is on and the smell of bacon is coming from the kitchen. Joe is up and preparing breakfast.

“Good morning babe. Are you ready to eat?” says Joe.

“Good morning. Yes, I’m starving.” replies Claire.  

“I’ll have the eggs ready in a minute. So, how was your walk? Is it cold out?” 

“Yes, it’s bitter cold and the wind is terrible. I don’t know why the sun even bothers anymore. Kara is so stubborn, she could be freezing her paws off but she refuses to come back before we complete our usual route.”

“You know how she is with you. You don’t walk with her as often as I do, that’s why she gets so excited.”

“I know, I know. I wouldn’t mind walking her more often, if the weather were nicer. I am going to make more coffee.”

“I cleaned the filter and put in more coffee already. You just need to add the water and turn it on.”

“Great. Thank you.”

After Joe leaves for work, Claire goes to her office and starts working on her computer. She works for a telecommunication company. She likes to work from home, it makes her feel comfortable. She thinks that working from home allows her to hide from her coworkers so that they can forget that she is overweight. Claire usually ignores these thoughts. Thoughts that do not correspond with her reality as a successful professional. Nevertheless, they are always present in the back of her mind. She reflects on her self-esteem every so often. About how she constructed her self-image. About all the times that people told her she needed to change. That she needed to be
different if she wanted to achieve her goals. About that agent in Florida who once told her she needed to lose weight to be an actor. That it was unacceptable for her to be overweight. Why could people not look at her beyond her appearance? Is society so blinded by vanity? Obsessed with the superficial, the superfluous and meaninglessness of the external? To the point of dehumanizing people and transforming them into living displays of acceptable looks? Why was she unacceptable? Who set the standard for women to be slim? The people who surrounded her and acted in a condescending way or treated her as if she had a disease; were they all just following the script that society set for overweight women? Her mind wonders about these thoughts as she works on her computer.

Dariusz Grosa , red and orange maple leaves on tree, from Pexels.

Winter passed. It is fall and the trees outside Claire’s house are beautifully colored. Bright yellow, red, and orange tones transform the landscape as autumn appears. Claire is working in her office as usual. The TV is on in the other room. She likes to leave it on for noise. It makes her feel that she is not alone when Joe is at work. The news is on the television. They are covering the Weinstein scandal, as new allegations of sexual harassment, assault, and rape are made public. Claire cannot focus, her social media is flooded with comments and stories, part of the #MeToo movement. Women across the nation are stepping out to tell their stories. Stories that involve men with power harassing women and participating in despicable behavior. She has been thinking a lot about it for the last couple of weeks. It is hard not to when the media is overloaded with such stories. Claire is a happily married woman. She has a good standing in life. A successful career. A lovely home. A husband who loves her. Friends and family who also love her. Everything is looking good for her. But beneath her seemingly happy life, something is burdening her.

Janice Butts, photograph of John, Shawnee KS, Spring 2019. All rights reserved.

After a while, she gets annoyed and turns the TV off. It disgusts her to keep hearing about those men. It makes her feel angry and upset. Her cat shows up and stares at her silently from across the room. His big feline eyes look directly into hers as if he knows that she is hiding something. It appears that he is looking for an unspoken truth behind her eyes. She looks at him and tears start to roll slowly down her cheeks. Something inside her has surfaced, something painful. She sits on the floor and cries aloud. Kara comes in and sits next to her, licking her face, trying to comfort her. Claire lays on the floor, now in silence. Kara lays with her. The voices of many women who were victims as she is resonating in her head. She feels compelled to face a painful memory that she has kept secret for many years.

Joe returns from work in the afternoon and finds Claire in bed. She is asleep. He approaches her and kisses her softly so as not to wake her up. He goes downstairs to the kitchen and Kara comes to welcome him. He pets her and enters the kitchen. The counter is messy and there are two empty wine bottles in the sink. He is surprised; it is not normal for Claire to leave a mess like that. There is a pan on the stove with two steaks in it. He checks the fridge and finds a big bowl of salad ready. He starts cleaning and cooking the steaks. The table is already set. Dinner is ready, so he goes to get Claire. He calls her gently, and tells her dinner is ready. She looks at him with a blank face.

“What’s wrong babe? Are you ok?” Asks Joe.

“Hi Joe. I am sorry I fell asleep. I had some wine and just felt tired.” Says Claire.

“Don’t worry about that. I took care of it. Is there something wrong? Do you want to talk about it?”

She reaches for him in a hug with her face in his chest and starts crying. He holds her and pats her back. He does not know what is happening. He is confused and scared.

“Claire, please. What’s wrong honey? What happened?”

“Joe. I’m sorry I just can’t stand it anymore. I have to tell you something.”

They have a long chat. Claire shares her story with him. It happened many years ago when she was 22. She was at a bar with friends and had argued with a man, who later followed her home and assaulted her. He was a young and very unpleasant man. Claire had responded to some rude comments that he made about her at the bar. Something happened in his mind that drove him to violence. Perhaps he felt empowered to do it. Maybe he felt that he needed to prove his control over her. No matter what the reason, it changed Claire’s life forever.

Janice Butts, painting untitled, Shawnee KS, 2016. All rights reserved.

She never reported it to the police. She did not talk about it with her parents or her friends or anybody. She felt so ashamed and scared. She felt that it was her fault. She carried it as a secret for 23 years. Now she was determined to report it to the police. She could not tolerate the thought that this man could be out there, still hurting women. Claire felt that this was a good moment for her to speak up. A movement was intensifying. Increasing momentum with every story, with every voice and Claire would become one of them.

“Joe, I want to report it.” Says Claire.

“If that is what you need to do. We will honey. I love you.” Answers Joe.

“Thank you. I love you too.”